one of my heartstrings has broken

i was a houseplant
  'nd you wr a light
  (though i only watched th' lampshade)
 
i remember walking with you in the spring
  'nd you wr enjoying the wind
 
there is something stuck to my mind
  that i cannot place
  (but it is connected to you)
 
  it aches for approval that you gave freely
 
you tore th' paper mask from poetry
  'nd sung about naked reality
      naked politics
      bleeding 'nd dancing
      suffering 'nd celebrating
 
there are conversations that never began
  in the fog of endless futures
 
  they were dropped in th' distance
  of time 'nd separation
 
you told how words are poems are music
  are th' fabric of dreams that wake us in the night
     with their terrible screams of night terror realization
     with their tears of joy for unforgotten memories
 
     what it was 'nd what it could be
 
i was a houseplant
  'nd you wr a light

For Billy Capozzi (1966-2012)